I honestly can’t believe that the darn bacon is still in the fridge. Can someone please eat it already?!? It looks at me, mocking, tempting me, reminding me of what I can’t have. Sigh. Today has been a good day. I got to spend it with some very good friends. While most people celebrate Valentine’s Day, I celebrate Singleness Awareness Day. Yet another day to be reminded that I’m single. However, I also have to remind myself that I’m single not because I don’t have options. I’m single because I do have options! I’m not going to go into a relationship just for the sake of having a relationship. But, I wasn’t going to let this day get me all depressed. So, I went out with two friends and had a great time. We went to an Ethiopian restaurant and had some vegetarian fare. It was a little bit hard opening the menu and seeing the lamb, beef and chicken option and having to say no, no and no to all three. And when we got to the restaurant, I had to resist the urge to check in and claim new points because I was probably “the first of my friends to check-in” at that place. I couldn’t even Instagram my picture. During the ride back home, this random piece of the bus handle hit me in the face as a man tried to use it to steady himself. Instead of helping him remain standing, it flew straight to my face. I couldn’t even tweet my rage! I honestly don’t know how people without social media live. I was secretly hoping that the guy in front of me who saw the whole thing would tweet about it. I guess if I can’t go on social media, I can live vicariously through others.
As I’m going through this period of being refined, it’s hard not to whine and grumble about everything. I’m missing out on this, I’m missing out on that, I can’t have this, I can’t have that. Those seem to be what I constantly feel. However, I also know that as I get rid of the outside noise, I will be able to hear the voice inside with more clarity. The voice is faint, barely a whisper. I can’t wait to hear it speak loudly. I’m not sure what it would tell me to do, but I know that it will tell me not to settle for mediocrity when I was made for excellence. For now, I must content myself with the soft whispers as the outside noise continues to assault my senses.
Join me on this journey.