Doubt is something that I have struggled with for a very long time. In many ways, I still struggle with it to this very day. It’s hard not to doubt yourself. It seems as if the whole world is against you. My world tells me that I’m not skinny enough, I’m not good-looking enough, I’m not white enough, I’m not smart enough, I’m not Christian enough, I’m not *insert anything here*. It can be very crippling at times. You don’t want to make a mistake and that fear of making a mistake can be so paralyzing.
It is amidst that background that I want to share this song with yall. It’s a song that perfectly encapsulates things that I have felt… and want to feel in the future! I may have struggled with doubts in the past (heck, even to the present!) but I would really like my future to be doubt-free! I am thankful for friends who continually encourage me to see myself in the way that they see me. I am grateful that I have people in my life who are willing to say the hard things I need to hear so I can be a better person. I am glad that I have loved ones who tell me that I’m good enough… and not only good enough, but that I’m great and that I should never forget that.
It’s hard not to settle for lesser things because you have this feeling at the very core of your being that you are probably not going to amount to much so you might as well settle for anything… or anyone… who comes your way because that’s the best you’re going to get anyways. It’s hard to believe that you will amount to something when you have always felt that you are a colossal failure… someone who is barely keeping it together. So many times, I have felt like I am barely hanging by a thread. I could not fake one more smile when all I wanted to do was curl into a little ball and cry my eyes out. When the doubts overwhelm me to the point of apathy, I am reminded that somehow, someway, somewhere along the way, I have believed a lot of lies about myself and that I need to let go of the lies so I could live in my truth. The truth is, I am loved with an everlasting love by a heavenly Father who knows my name and cares for me. I am loved by people all over the world who somehow sees the best in me even when I couldn’t see it.
The battle to overcome our doubts and fear of failure is an ongoing one. I hope this song can encourage you in the journey to release yourself from lies and walk in the truth that you are loved.