Day 16 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

I think that God has given me certain gifts that I feel like I haven’t been able to use in awhile. I used to be more involved in different church ministries but lately haven’t been as active as before due to personal reasons. I wanted to change that and talked to a pastor about potentially starting a Bible study. He encouraged me to connect with someone in the church who knew of a family who would potentially be interested in having one at their house. I chatted with her and told her that I would love to help out in leading a Bible study. She asked the family and they said yes! Woohoo! So starting next week, I’m going to have the opportunity and privilege to lead a Bible study with a Nepalese family. Awesomeness! I’m super looking forward to next week when we start!

I also went back to work today. It was nice to be out of the house and breathe fresh air again. Today, I just wanted to take the time to show my thankfulness and appreciation to God because He has done great things in my life. I love Him so much!!!

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Day 15 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

I am definitely on the road to recovery. Thank You Jesus! I’m feeling better and not as weak as I’ve been feeling. It has been way too long! I feel like I’ve been on bed rest since Saturday. I think my body has been stressed out. Someone asked me if I have heard back about my Ph.D. application yet and it finally clicked in. I really do think that my body has been subconsciously stressing out about this whole thing. I may have suppressed such emotions but my body knows the truth. They told me that I should hear by the end of Feb. and that day is fast approaching.

I need to focus more on God during this time. I feel like He’s not as much of my focus as I want Him to be. Oh Lord, give me the strength to follow after You.

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Day 14 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

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I’m still sick but I think I’m starting to feel better. I was chatting with a friend and she recommended watching this 2 part mini-series called “Marry Me” on YouTube. I must say that I really enjoyed it. The dialogue was very witty and I really liked the characters. Watching it in my state may not be the best thing… I feel like I love torturing myself sometimes. But, it was really funny and I enjoyed it a lot.

It’s so hard not having access to social media. Maybe, it’s for the best. Especially yesterday, and I think even today, I wished I could send an emo status update or some “woe is me” tweet. There was no venting, only turning in to myself. I don’t know if that’s a good thing, but right now, that’s what I have. Sigh. It’s so much easier to send a message into the world wide web than tell people personally. Somehow, it just feels realer if I have to physically voice out my thoughts. I really miss social media.

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Day 13 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

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Today, I found out that a girl that I liked is now engaged. I am super happy for her. While I don’t really know the guy, I can tell that he makes her happy and that he would take good care of her. However, I think I would be lying if I said it wasn’t hard to hear that news. The emo part of me put Adele’s “Someone like you” on repeat for at least an hour. After that, I had to stop otherwise I would get more depressed. It doesn’t help that I’m still sick.

The rest of the day was basically spent trying to process this new information and not getting depressed. It was quite a feat to try and manage that. I was also supposed to meet up with a friend today but decided that resting is probably the wisest choice I can do. Today was just a really tough day physically, emotionally and spiritually.

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Day 12 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

Today, I didn’t go to church because I was still feeling under the weather. I decided to listen to a sermon by Matt Chandler on God and the government based on Rom. 13:1-7. I did an exegetical paper based on Rom. 13:1-7 for my Greek exegesis course so I was definitely wary about hearing him talk on it. Sometimes, when you have studied a text in depth, it gets annoying when you hear others talk about it in such a superficial way. However, I was impressed at how I didn’t completely disagree with his exegesis. I was mildly surprised when I found myself agreeing with some of the things he said.

Resting today and I’m hoping that I will be back in full form tomorrow. For now, I shall await the hours till I watch the Oscars. Here’s hoping Jennifer Lawrence wins for Best Actress for “Silver Linings Playbook.”

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Day 11 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

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Today was a sick day. I didn’t do much all day. Needed to get my rest. Figured I might as well get caught up on Community. Such a funny show. Yet, also very real. Community can be fun but it can also be messy. We are all complex human beings. It’s so much easier to put everyone in the good and evil category. Sometimes, I wish it was that simple. We are all just a ball of hurt walking around, hoping that things will eventually work out sometimes. It’s just a reminder that I need to be nicer to others because I have no idea what they have gone through/are going through. I wasn’t able to go to church today (yah, I go to church on a Saturday… and a Sunday one too! lolz) But, found out that my pastor apparently made a reference to me. I sent him my paper and he talked about it from the pulpit. That’s pretty kewl!

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Day 10 – The Lenten Journey of Sid

I woke up this morning and I knew I was going to be sick. True to form, I was. I went to work and as the day unfolded, I kept feeling worse and worse. I had dinner, went home, and I’m going to sleep pretty early. It’s been awhile since I have slept before midnight. Oh, do I ever need it!

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