I started the year with the desire to be better. I wanted to learn how to love myself. I’m not sure if I have done a great job of that. But I am thankful that I at least acknowledge the problem and wanted to make the necessary steps to achieve this goal. I think I’m slowly being more ok with myself. I’m not quite at the loving phase but I think I’ve been less resentful of myself. Baby steps I guess.
This year has been a whirlwind. I can’t believe that in a few months, it’s almost Christmas. I can’t believe that another year is almost over. I honestly don’t know how I feel about that. But I don’t want to think too much about the future that I forget the here and now. I want to live in the present.
And in this present, I just want to express my heartfelt gratitude. I am thankful for my family who supports me and my friends who continually encourage me. The PhD life is lonely and isolating. I’m thankful for people like Renee Robinson whose friendship over the years has brought so much laughter and joy in my life, for people like Justin Roberts who has this ability to speak into my life like no one can, for people like Josh Heath who continually challenges me to become a better man of God both physically and spiritually, for people like Josh Janzen whose desire to live a godly life is commendable, for people like David Fuller who has this keen awareness of how I’m doing, it’s uncanny, for people like Don Springer who always takes me out and talk about what’s bothering me when he senses that things are off, for people like Michelle Daniel who takes the initiative to reach out to me to make sure that I’m ok, for people like Sandi Hicks who may live in another province yet never fails to check up on me to see how I’m doing, for people like Rose-Ingrid Gracia who is living out her dreams and inspires me to do the same, for people like Lea Marte whose kindness and generosity towards people who are undeserving always convicts me to do the same, for people like James Lucas whose friendship over the years has never wavered. And there are so many others whose names aren’t mentioned here who encourage me, inspire me, exhort me, and challenge me to think properly about myself and who love me not in spite of me, but because of me.
Thanksgiving Week may be over but I would like to make sure that my attitude of thanksgiving keeps on going.