I can’t believe I’m entering my fifth year of Ph.D. Has it really been this long? After finishing two years of course work, passing my comprehensive exams, modern language exam, and having my dissertation proposal accepted, I’m now in the process of actually writing my dissertation. To say that it has been an arduous journey is an understatement. It has been a difficult process. Sometimes, it can be easy to start thinking that one hasn’t accomplished anything worthwhile. Being in school for this long can sometimes make you feel that way. Recently, I was revising my CV and it was nice to see that I’m not as useless as I feel. It’s crazy to see the number of conference presentations I have been able to attend over the last number of years. It’s also been humbling that I’m in the process of working on some writing projects that I am considering submitting for publication. Seriously, I sometimes ask “Is this real life?” How did I get here?
I admit that I’m tired. I don’t really feel super refreshed heading into this school year. However, I am thankful to have people in my life whose presence refreshes me. Their words are often a balm to my soul and gives strength to my weary bones. I’m in the process of establishing a sustainable work schedule that seeks to address my whole being as a person. That means working out, hanging out with people and trying not to talk about school all the time, spending time with God, enjoying art… well, at least that’s the hope.
Here’s to another year of hopes, dreams, and lots of hustling. Looking forward to what the future has in store.