Wednesday Writings – Nov. 28


Awhile ago, I wrote a blog post that was inspired by Amanda Todd’s suicide. She was a young girl who was bullied constantly and felt that suicide was the only way to escape the pain. The poem that I wanted to share today was also a tribute to a man I never knew but whose words have haunted me. His name was Bill Zeller. Before he committed suicide, he left behind a suicide note explaining why he did what he did. As I read it, my heart was just filled with grief and sadness that someone went through what he went through alone. He felt as if no one could ever help him. That is a terrible lie and an even more terrible reality to live out.

If you’re reading this and you’re contemplating suicide, I would urge you, plead with you, beg you, not to go through with it. The pain that you’re going through is probably unbearable and it hurts so much but suicide is not the answer to your problems. There are people who you can talk to, confide to, and they can help you. Also, there is a loving Father in heaven who loves you so much and sent His Son to die for you so that you don’t have to. There are various resources out there: people, communities, organizations that you can reach out to and who will do their best to help you go through what you’re going through. You’re not alone.

If you ever want to talk, please feel free to e-mail me or connect with me on Facebook and Twitter. I will be here to lend a listening ear =)

the dark passenger
scream, cry, numb

every fiber straining
to hold it all together.
but i can’t.
not anymore.
no one knows
not until the end
will they realize.
by then… too late.
emptiness swallowing me whole
until i am lost, never to be found.
truth hurts.

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